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Britney tweets ‘life goes on’ after discussing her 13 year conservatorship in emotional video

The singer has seemingly paid tribute to Sir Elton John after their duet, 'Hold Me Closer'.

By Alastair James

Words: Alastair James; pictures: Instagram/@britneyspears

Britney Spears seems to be looking ahead to the future after posting on Twitter that “life goes on” after discussing her 13-year conservatorship online. 

Posting a video of herself posing in a bright yellow dress accompanied by aviators on Twitter on Monday (29 August) Britney, 40, said: “Life goes on 💐 !!! On rare occasions there can be something sought after, something that makes us wanna go further …”

In the accompanying thread, she also said that “producing is where my heart lies and lifts me with inspiration,” adding that “I’ve had the opportunity to work with someone who is beautiful and kind on all levels,” seemingly in reference to her recent hit with Sir Elton John, ‘Hold Me Closer’.

The remix of John’s ‘Tiny Dancer’ and ‘The One’ is already number 1 in multiple countries and is hopefully the start of a new era for the ‘Stronger’ singer.

In an interview with The Guardian ahead of the track’s release producer Andrew Watt said Britney “took complete control” and “She was so prepared. She had spent time with the record and knew how she wanted to do it.”

Britney continued again seeming to reference John: “I’m honored and I feel loved 💕 by his awareness and acknowledgement, not by only my involement with a song but by my struggles and what I’ve been through !!! He knows the hardships of the world on a bigger scale …”

It follows a 22-minute video the singer reportedly posted on YouTube and shared on her Twitter account on Sunday (28 August)

In the since-deleted video, copies of which are still available online, Britney said “there’s a lot going on in my head that I haven’t shared with anyone,” and revealed the likes of Oprah had approached her to do a sit-down interview to discuss her conservatorship.

“To me, it’s beyond a sit-down, proper interview,” she also says, and that she feels like she’s in a more confident place to share things openly. 

She expresses confusion about what she had done that led to the conservatorship (“Honestly to this day, I don’t know really what I did”) but makes a claim that the conservatorship was “pre-meditated” and says that after speaking to her doctor in a British accent there were helicopters at her home, a SWAT team, and then “over 200 paparazzi outside my house videotaping me through a window of an ambulance holding me down on a gurney.”

She says “there were no drugs in my system. No alcohol. No nothing. It was pure abuse.”

In explosive testimony last year, which eventually led to the end of the conservatorship Britney detailed some of her experiences under the control of the conservatorship including not being allowed to get married and have children.

She alleged “conservatorship abuse” against her father, Jamie Spears, who has repeatedly denied any wrongdoing.

Britney echoes a lot of this in her video adding that she was constantly watched while changing, had blood taken from her, and says she was sent to a facility after disagreeing with a dance move during a rehearsal for a show. 

She describes not being allowed to have fun with her dancers during the tour for Circus in 2009 and knowing that the performances weren’t good but being helpless. 

Britney also expresses anger towards her sister, Jamie Lynn Spears as well as her mother, Lynne, for not doing anything to help, comparing them to the #FreeBritney movement.

“The whole thing that made it really confusing for me is these people are on the street fighting for me, but my sister and my mother aren’t doing anything” the ‘Toxic’ singer says.

“To me, it was like they secretly honestly liked me being the bad one — like I was messed up, and they kind of just liked it that way. Otherwise, why weren’t they outside my doorstep, saying, ‘Baby girl, get in the car. Let’s go.’,” she says while questioning, “How the fuck did they get away with it?”

On Sunday Britney’s mother posted on Instagram saying “Your whole life I have tried my best to support your dreams and wishes!” and “I have never and will never turn my back on you! Your rejections to the countless times I have flown out and calls make me feel hopeless!

“I have tried everything. I love you so much, but this talk is for you and me only, eye to eye, in private.”

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Of the conservatorship and control exerted over her Britney claims: “they literally killed me” and “I felt like my family threw me away”.

Closing her video the singer speaks to people who may feel alone “But if you are a weird, introvert oddball like me, who feels alone a lot of the time and you needed to hear a story like this so you don’t feel alone, know this: My life has been far from easy and you’re not alone.”

Touching on ‘Hold me Closer’ Britney says, “I have an amazing song right now with one of the most brilliant men of our time, and I am so grateful”. 

The arrangement, which had seen Mr. Spears have oversight of his daughter’s life and finances began in 2008 following the ‘Stronger’ singer’s widely publicised personal struggles. Britney was released in November 2021. 

The Attitude September/October issue is out now.